Annie Q. R.I.P

"Hey Jim."
"Hey yeah?"
"You know how Annie Q has been sick for a while, well that was just Jamie calling to say that she died."


You know those moments in life when the whole world just seems to stop for that split second, but it feels forever. I had one of those tonight, it was weird because I thought that the first funneral that I thought that I would be going to would be my parents, but clearly God had other plans. I have to leave school early on Friday, to drive back to where ever the funneral is and then start the holidays. Not a great start to the holidays but you know what I say;
"Thank God that she is dead." (that was NOT meant to be mean or blasphemy[is that how you spell it?]) I need to praise God, there is nothing I can do. I can't be mad at him, because my youth leader gave me this really cool analogy; "God doesnt make bad things happen, but he does let them happen so he can show his people his love."

Its crazy how quick it all happens. I mean one day your sitting with them having the time of your life, and the next your standing infront of a crowd giving a speech about what a magnificent person they were. The weird thing is that, I don't feel like crying. I was so close to her and I don't feel like crying. I dont know whats wrong with me.

I guess I should probably go to bed, big day today. I need the sleep too, gotta go to school tomorow. Only 3 more days, then holidays. What will I do?